Abbie. Sophie. Marvin.

Anything I went against him, he punished me by trying to destroy the “anything”.  Because that would hurt me the most, if that’s what i was trying to protect, obviously.

I feel completely out of touch with reality. I feel judged and looked down on (by friends). I’m insecure and catch myself looking for acceptance. It’s a habit, hopefully, and not who I am now.

I only saw the “punishment” last night. I’ve been gone since January. It took 4 months to see it. I’m guessing it’ll take longer to see the rest, and that makes me sad. But, at least I’ll see it and seeing/knowing is half the battle (right?).